I’m reminded of the White Rabbit in Alice in Wonderland who goes rushing by looking at his watch saying ‘I’m late, I’m late…’ – he’ s living by the clock. Or the cartoon characters trying to run away, the movement of their legs expressed as spinning wheels but not getting very far. Both are comical visual images of fear.
That is where I have been stuck recently, in a perpetual state of catch up, of being stuck behind the boulder in the path, trying to push it out of the way (fear that it’s an insurmountable problem) instead of going round it.
Haanel says in 2 ‘In seeking the truth we are seeking ultimate cause… and if we shall find that this cause is one we can consciously control, the effect or the experience will be within our control.’
So what is the truth of the situation.
Standing back from it I know that I have allowed things to pile up – it’s nobody’s fault but mine. There are things that I know I want to do and have set in motion but are scary – will I be able to do it, will I succeed. The effect has been fear becoming my dominant thought resulting in sleepless nights, which has a compound effect. It’s like looking towards the shimmering mirage of the oasis of calm that never gets any closer.
Cause and effect.
If I want to change the effect I must work on the cause. The moment of truth. Now I could sit here and make a list of all that I need to do. That involves a lot of thinking but it’s just putting off the moment to act. The most important thing is to prioritise and I don’t need to make a list of what my most urgent priorities are.
The Mind is our most powerful tool because it enables us to Think which is all very well but nothing happens unless we act on the thought as he reminds us in 14:
‘We also know that this mind is static, mind at rest, we also know that the ability of the individual to think is his ability to act upon the Universal Mind and convert it into dynamic mind, or mind in motion.’
However I’m not going to beat myself up over my perceived shortcomings (I’ve done enough of that in the past and I’m done with it). But it’s time to get off my butt, get moving, circumnavigate the boulder and chip away the Buddha’s cement.
In other words, get a grip, and as Susan Jeffers’ aptly titled book says: ‘Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway’.