It has been a challenging few days.
Technology has been determined to get me into the clutches of the men in white coats. It became my bête noir.
If what we think about comes about – it did! Everything went wrong, which I suppose deep down I expected and that’s what I got.
So what was the reason for all this angst? Basically, frustration because the problems that arose I had no idea where to begin in finding my way round the technical jargon etc of how to resolve the situation without some wonderful help from my daughter. And the fear of compounding the problem, which would make matters worse. Even so, my laptop was in danger of becoming a UFO several times.
A comment on one of my early blogs when I mentioned I was a technophobe was that they were sure I’d be a ‘techie genius’ in no time. Yea right! Says the old blueprint.
So during my sit today my intention was to ask for guidance, for help to overcome these fearful feelings to do with technology and although I fell asleep I felt calmer afterwards.
I also did a tapping (EFT) meditation, which also helped to re-establish my equilibrium.
I was then in a frame of mind to step back and be objective. So what’s the root cause – Fear:
Fear of making things worse. To address that fear tomorrow I take delivery of a back up hard drive to back up my laptop before downloading any new software – just in case!
Fear that I can’t keep up with technology – Maybe I just have to accept that I’m not going to be wiz kid – but so what, as long as I can use the thing that’s all that matters.
Fear of being left behind. Life’s too short to worry about that one.
And on the plus side: I’m not an idiot – just challenged and my challenges are small potatoes compared to what some people have to deal with. So get over it and do the best I can.
Og says in Scroll III:
So long as there is breath in me, thus long will I persist. For now I know one of the greatest principles of success: if I persist long enough I will win.
So my mantra must be;
I will persist.
I will win.